Well I guess I have to officially call it. Ellowyn has completely weaned herself at 13 months. It all goes back to when she was so sick for so long over the Christmas holidays. She went on a two week long nursing strike and then after that we just never got back to normal. She went back to nursing again, but it was never like before and she has been gradually weaning herself ever since. Now if I try to nurse her, she will refuse to latch about 90% of the time and on the few occasions that she does latch it is only for a few seconds. So... that's it, I guess. She's done so I have to be done, too.
I'm pretty bummed about this. I really wanted to nurse her longer, (1) because of the health benefits of breast milk but also (2) because she is my last and I love the breastfeeding relationship and I don't want to already be at that point where I will never be able to experience it ever again. So I guess I'm grieving just a little bit.
But on the bright side, I can finally go out and buy some bras that fit! (They don't manufacture nursing bras in my size. Literally. I guess they think that women who are my size around couldn't possibly need a cup size that large. I had to buy bras that were too big and then alter them myself. That is one problem I won't miss.) So at least there's that.